Saturday, February 6, 2010

Dear Diary~...

So...since that I'm sharing what I feel, what I think, what I know, what I understand bout the world tht revolves around me, I'm gonna share with u guys my longggg..years of diary writing..hehe..it's funny when I read them back, but to me..these are my treasures, of my own history of life. A solid proof of my living and existence in this world.. :)

Tadda!~...inilah hasil kumpulan2 buku sejak sy berusia 13thn..hahaha!

Sy nak share dgn korang a page from each books sejak dr umur 13thn smpi la skarang~... Bila bace blk setiap perkataan tu membawa makna penting..menunjukkan kematangan kita berfikir.. Dari tahun ke tahun, macam2 yg diceritakan dan yg penting, dicurahkan..sbb diary tu jd peneman kite nak luahkan perasaan..girls kan suke bercerita bila die rase gembira,marah, suka duka..sume dirasakan perlu utk diluahkan.. Kadang2 tergelak sorang2 sbb dr situ kite dapat nilai betapa naivenye kite tyme tu..huhuhu..so, jom kite selak balik satu persatu~..nk reveal rahsia besar ni..hahaha! jum3!~

BIODATA (ditulis waktu umur 11tahun)
Pada tahun 1986, lahirlah seorang bayi perempuan Bernama Nur Amelia Husna. Bayi tersebut sangat comel. [statement xbleh blah] Bapanya bernama Hasbullah dan ibunya bernama Hasnah. Kini usianya telah meningkat 11 tahun. Hari jadinya jatuh pada 3.5.1986.














Tahun 1998

Mase tahun 1998, sy lebih byk menulis biodata dlm buku kawan2..hahaha! maklumlah tgh nk UPSR, xsempat nk menulis diary agaknya..tp, sy sgt happie sbb msih ingat byk kenangan2 best yg berlaku dlm tahun tu..xtulis dlm diary pun tp, coz memory masih kuat mengingati zaman kanak2 yg penuh ceria! :D
p/s: nnt sy post pages from buku biodata yg sgt lame tu k~..pastu tag org yg tulis tu! hahaha! bce balik ape yg korng tulis almost 12 years ago~... [lamenyeeee...]

Tahun 1999

Time ni sy masuk form 1 di SMK Dato' Ahmad Maher kt KB, Klate. Baru kenal erti dunia remaja sbb sy time ni dikategorikan sbg pra-remaja <--pre-teens sgt aneh bg sy..xmo jd remaja pun time tu.. susah nk ngaku yg diri ini bukan kanak2 lagi..Time form 1 tu, mmg shock jgk sbb tgk abang2 n kakak2 yg besar2 blake..kan mase ni pertumbuhan tubuh badan pesat kan, so rase cm kecik je kite ni time tuh..hmmmm..tp, slow2 mula adapt dgn persekitaran skolah menengah. rase xsabar nk jd besar n tggi macam kakak2 yg cntik belaka. Time ni sempat duk asrama 3 bulan lebih, pastu kua sbb xtahan..haha! byk lg nk btau, tp dpendekkan cite, sy dibuli sbb xreti ckp kelantan n xdpt adapt dgn hostel life kot.[<--bukti anak manja?] hmmm..





AHAD; 7hb FEB 1999
4.21 ptg: Umi, amy tengah tension ni umi..amy tak tahu apa nak buat, sakit betul kepala ni. Umi...amy tak tahan umi. Hari tu bila amy cakap, umi suruh sabar, amy sabar, tapi tak jadi apa pun!. Amy nak balik...tapi nak tunggu satu semester dulu. Tak nak keluar lepas raya cina..Takpelah, biar amy yang bayar..., kalau amy keluar sebelum habis 1 semester pun, umi tak rugi..kan! Biarlah amy duduk sini dulu. Tapi, yang amy nak umi tahunya amy betul2 tension dan amy tak tahu apa sebabnya. balik raya cina ni amy nak cakap jugak kat umi...tak kiralah..amy dah tak tahan. Nanti, jadi macam Diana kawan amy tu baru tahu. Nak makan nangis, nak belajar nangis, nak berak pun nangis jugak agaknya.

Haha!..apelaaa..kutuk kwn asyik nangis..sape lah Diana tu agaknya..sy pun da lupe..huhu..



Tahun 2000
Hmmmm...time ni byk kipas-susah-mati [die-hard-fans]..hahaha! ;p maklumlaaa, sedang meningkat remaja..xde ciri2 kanak2 lg..sedang bermetamorphosis! haaaaa~...so, byk gk menggatal time nih..ala, bukan suka betul pun..test market je..tp, byk kenangan yg boleh diingat..yeah, hot stuff la time tuh! hahaha! [<---statement riak..isy3..]
Hellow..ape kabar semua..? Okie kerr..? Harap2 macam tulah..sayer?? Sayer okie jerr.. [byk nyerrr 'rrrr'.. ;p]...Al-maklumlah...baru ni boyfriend [boyfriend???] telefon..hehehehe..!!! Ermmmm..tapi masa telefon tu..tak banyak yang dicakapkan..tak ada idea..terkejut kot..! Hahahahaha..sayer tak tahulah..sama ada die betul2 ikhlas ker tak kawan dengan saya. Sooo..sejujurnya saya katekan..saya tak sukakan dia sepenuh hati...separuh jerrr...[macam yeee je..] Dahlah..!! Nanti dia dah boring kawan ngan kiter taklah kiter frust sangat.. [sangat realistik! hahaha!] Kiter kena terima kenyataan...yang cinta monyet ni tak sampai kemana..BETUL TAK?? [<--yee...betul~..haha..bagus gk aku time 14thn ni..siap pesan kt diri sendiri..]






Tahun 2001
Tahun ni sy PMR..so, xbrape best rasenye..hmmm..mcm xde je pape yg ditulis..time ni mmg betul2 study agaknye..tp, this year pun byk kenangan best..n kenangan xbest gk..pelik laaa..tahun ni tahun transition kot..hmmmm...

Tahun 2002
Pun xde diary gk..hmmm..mase ni pindah kat Jalan Kebun..from Kelate back again to Selangor..dulu b4 pindah Kelate duk kat Setapak KL..Mase ni da masuk form 4..Sekolah kat Jalan Kebun jap, pastu pindah MRSM Besut. So, mula la life boarding school..mmg best..tp xde tulis ape la dalam buku..just ingat je jugak..huhuhu..Buku banyak nota ilmiah, mungkin sbb bersemangat utk blaja bersungguh-sungguh time menengah atas. [<--si skema yg tulen..]

Tahun 2003
Mase tahun ni lg laaa...bz ngn study sbb nk SPM..xsempat la nak curhat2 ni..hahaha! Tp sempat jumpe satu coretan dlm buku:

I guess I wanna settle down
at
home and work at McDonald's or Tesco or Giant.
Maybe..n get a driving licence...
Go out every weekends with my bros and sis..
Learn to dance...


Sebenarnya sy sendiri pun xtahu kenape tulis mcm ni..hmmm...mungken sbb da mula timbul rasa nk berdikari kot..xpun da xsabar nk habiskan pelajaran..mungken la..paling xbleyh blah ialah keinginan menari..huhuhu..mmg da lama niat nak blaja salsa, tango atau flamenco..belum berkesempatan..akan blaja jugk satu hari nnt..insyaAllah~

Selain tu, sy banyak juge tulis lirik2 lagu kegemaran..hehe..spt lagi Evanescence (Bring Me To Life) ni..hmm..
mungken mase ni suke relatekan diri sendiri dgn lirik2 yg dinyanyikan..so, klu lgu tu kene dgn cite hidup time tu, mmg akan jd lgu fevret..kan? betul x? hehe..













Tahun 2004
Tahun ni sgt mengujakan krn sy telah berusia 18 tahun!~..hehe..ape yg best? emmm..when I was 18, I fell in Love~..huuu..siyes ni..mase ni mmg ngaku sgt mmg betul2 telah jatuh cinta! ngee.. <3 style="font-weight: bold;">Tahun 2005
Tahun ni dah abes matrik..
1st Jan 2005; 03:58am
Welcome 2005!! Hope this year will be full of joyous and prosperous days!!..AMIN..
Here's how to loos a guy in 10min..
- tell him he got lots of gf..
- make him fed-up with u.. (annoy him over and over again..)
- use the word 'JUZ FRIENDS'..
- Crammed in 'no use' in any relationship concern sentences..
- Tell him you've got lots of weaknesses..n ask him whether he wud help you change..if he says
"I'm not a good teacher''
Immediately assume that he had rejected you..and..voi la! You've lost HIM!! Congratz!..
BYE!
<--- sebenarnya ialah statement kecewa di tahun baru..huhu.. ;p Then, after grad from matrik pada bulan May, aku pun sambung blaja kat KUTPM (now MSU) bulan June tu..[sbb pointer xlepas nk wat medic in local uni..*sigh*..]
13 June 2005; 08:29pm
Hye! ari ni 1st day aku kat KUTPM ni..my second chance to pursue a career in medic. Hm.. this is my path, I guess..ALLAH dah tunjuk jalan ni untuk aku, so,,aku patut b'syukur sgt2.. Alhamdulillah.. :) aku akan study bersungguh2..Biar dpt gelaran Dr!..alang ALLAH dah tunjuk jalan, aku xpatut sia2kan peluang ni! INGAT! Jangan tinggal smayang..solat n doa byk2..biar ALLAH terangkan hati..InsyaALLAH..klo mmg ALLAH dah takdirkan jd Dr..jadilah..ALLAH dah kate, KUNFAYAKUN! Allah tu Maha Berkuasa..Usahalah, then tawakal..Allah lebih tahu ape yang terbaik utk kita.. :) study rajin2..

Tahun 2006
1st January 2006; 12:sumthing..; Matahari Club Library

It's The Start of 2006!!..
Dearest Diary,
Today ez the 1st Jan 2006..a new year..a new life..a new hope..I really hope..this new year would give a great impact in my life..Etz a crossroad..whether I can really take a great path in my life! being a DOCTOR!..or maybe..there would be a new path..which I really don't know where it leads to..But you know what, no matter which path I'll take..I'm just gonna make sure that I'll walk taht path with both my feet firm on the ground and my head straight up high..looking ahead of me.. I want to make myself proud..and make everyone around me proud of me..that's my dream..But, in the effort of achieving that, it would be a long..journey.. Well, to me the destination is not that important, but the journey is..how we had walk the path, what do we do..who were the people that have helped us along..it's all what we've done all along the journey that'll potray our destination..and our destination on earth is Death. No one can deny that..and after that, you'll start a new one..the afterlife..Akhirat..and God knows what that is there..Well, for now..I'm just going to live today's life to the fullest!..It's just today that you have to worry about coz u'll never know whether there will ever be tomorrow.. Well, at least for me..Good bye 2005 and Hello 2006!! :>

Tahun 2007
8/1/2007; 08:55pm; AG06

Happy New Year 2007!!
My Dear, Dearest Diary..
It's been a while right?..Well, I do want to write, it's just that my book was not around..Well, first of all, SELAMAT DATANG TAHUN BARU 2007!!..Oh My God..this year I'm turning 21! 21 is the age when u get the key to freedom..you're in the process of becoming an adult now..I'm a young adult and carefree! Actually, I'm not all excited about it, the thought of it is just a little bit scary..Anyhow, Hari Raya Qurban was nice..

Tahun 2008
Welcome 2008!! :)
OMG!! It's 1st January 2008! Another new year!..I have made it this far..Alhamdulillah..Lots of things happened in 2007..Most of them concerns friendship and value of a friend..All of the experiences grew with me..I've gained so much, made me older and wiser..Alhamdulillah..
2007 marks the year when I first entered adulthood..21 years old..age to the key of 'freedom'. But I wasn't so ready to take it..The risk was too high..Maybe, this year..I'm ready..to take another step further, to grew another year older (either ready/not), to gain a few or lots more experience and maybe this year, I'll find Love..who knows?..I'm READY!! come what may.. <--very dangerous to say! 18/4/08 Love come in the most unlikably situation..u can't predict it, control it or plan it..when it came, it came..
This year I would really like to focus on what I can predict, control or at least plan, even though at the end, it's all in God's will..MY STUDIES! I believe this year will be the point which will see whether I will be able to further my studies..I really have to work HARD+HARD+SMART! There's not turning back!


2009 and 2010 will be kept first~..Coz it concerns more deeper to heart...

That's all for this time!~..My first intro of my diary history..with that, I'm opening up my blog for the world to see~..a window to my heart~..Toodlez!~ XOXO




3 comments:

  1. nnt follow la blog kite ye~..nnt kite follow awk pule~.. ^^

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  2. yayyy! i like~ sgt2 comel n best!~

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